SAD – Seasonal Affective Disorder

I spoke with my therapist the other day and when I said that I am in much higher spirits now that the sun and its warmth have returned to SF, she said, "wow, your mood is really affected by the weather." Yes. Yes it is. Don't get me wrong, she is my absolute favorite. There's …

And Now

What a series the past few days have been! I spoke briefly with Patrick the Healer last night. He is interesting. People I trust, admire and respect very much, believe he is everything that he says he is. So when given the opportunity to do so, I ask for his guidance as well as theirs. He said …

On Second Thought

What's wrong with "for now"? This whole thing is about being more present! We demonize instant gratification [and with good reason] but we have to give in sometimes or else we live our lives entirely for the past or for the future and that's insane. Everything in moderation right? Future preparation and "gratification-for-now" alike. I don't …

Revised Benefits

Well that didn't last long. If this goes south, I'll know it was my own damn fault. But now we are "exclusive" friends with benefits and he apparently doesn't talk to his ex about feelings and "[doesn't] plan to start". He says they don't talk often and when they do it's just small talk. I'd …

Friends without Benefits

I ended things with Jack so we're back to "just friends". Had a good cry. Had a night out with two girl friends. And I'm [fairly] confident I made the right choice. He doesn't want to take things more seriously with me because he may leave for the peace core in Colombia. And he still has …

Morning Intentions

Yesterday I did everything right and I still felt crumby. Today I'll do it again. My walk up the stairs at 6 this morning was illuminated by sunlight for the first time in what feels like forever. I sat with the kids and had my coffee with them this morning. Normally their breakfast is rushed …

Back to Mindfulness Again

Sometimes it isn't enough to do the right things. Sometimes the fog rolls in anyways. I went to yoga this morning, after sending the kids off to school. I arrived late. Class had already begun and I scrambled to lay out my mat and catch up without disturbing the room. I was preoccupied for the …

Friends + Money

My friends' tendencies with money fascinate me. I've noticed a very distinct pattern with those who grew up with money and those who grew up without. My whole life I've known the latter pattern - when you cover someone's meal or smoothie or movie or what have you, you tell them not to worry about …

Airplane update

Not sure if I put deodorant on this morning. Bad etiquette to apply in the plane? Pls advise.

Airport Musings

Finally crawling out of the fog. Feeling pretty okay today. Still coughing so at this point I'm convinced it's an infection. Will try again to get a primary doc on Monday. Probably not going to kick this without antibiotics. Anywho, I'm currently in the airport, two hours early. Greece was just invaded again in my …