And Now

What a series the past few days have been! I spoke briefly with Patrick the Healer last night. He is interesting. People I trust, admire and respect very much, believe he is everything that he says he is. So when given the opportunity to do so, I ask for his guidance as well as theirs. He said …

On Second Thought

What's wrong with "for now"? This whole thing is about being more present! We demonize instant gratification [and with good reason] but we have to give in sometimes or else we live our lives entirely for the past or for the future and that's insane. Everything in moderation right? Future preparation and "gratification-for-now" alike. I don't …

Morning Intentions

Yesterday I did everything right and I still felt crumby. Today I'll do it again. My walk up the stairs at 6 this morning was illuminated by sunlight for the first time in what feels like forever. I sat with the kids and had my coffee with them this morning. Normally their breakfast is rushed …

Back to Mindfulness Again

Sometimes it isn't enough to do the right things. Sometimes the fog rolls in anyways. I went to yoga this morning, after sending the kids off to school. I arrived late. Class had already begun and I scrambled to lay out my mat and catch up without disturbing the room. I was preoccupied for the …

Airport Musings

Finally crawling out of the fog. Feeling pretty okay today. Still coughing so at this point I'm convinced it's an infection. Will try again to get a primary doc on Monday. Probably not going to kick this without antibiotics. Anywho, I'm currently in the airport, two hours early. Greece was just invaded again in my …

Hierarchy of Needs: Status Update

Okay, no more of this nonsense. Let's get back to wellness! Cold, infection, or whatever notwithstanding. Remember Maslow and his handy pyramid? Here: Physiological Needs: Breathing is cool, if slightly impeded by whatever sickness I've got going on recently. Food and water are always covered, thanks to the folks I work for as well as …

On the Up n Up

Okay so I'm already feeling much better, mentally at least. I successfully resisted texting Jack yesterday. This is a big deal for me because I get a bit obsessive when I'm feeling depressed, especially over my romantic relationships. He didn't reach out to me either and I didn't lose my mind over it. I'm getting …

Green Around the Gills

I've been sick for about two weeks now, give or take a couple days of thinking I'd recovered. The worst of it is not being well enough to carry out the self-care routines that keep my mental health on the up and up. I've been doing so well. And yesterday I plummeted as from a sheer cliff …

Reassured

I haven't felt this good about myself in ages. Mentally, things are better than ever. Physically, I think I may have the flu, and I fell down the stairs this morning. *Kanye shrug* At least I didn't hit my head this time. Last night I received an urgent last-minute dog boarding request. I accepted and …

Night Cap

For the first time in quite a while, after putting the boys to bed, I sat with their parents and we talked over a few glasses of wine. We talked about the foreseeable future, and agreed that we'd like very much to maintain the status quo. My heart is full. I love this family. I …